Tuesday, May 23, 2006

Life, Death, Age, Art
(just little topics like that)

A fellow San Francisco Opera supernumerary, the warm, witty and talented Katherine Brazaitis, passed away unexpectedly last week in an automobile accident in her hometown in Oklahoma. Our troupe of longtime supers is in a state of deep sadness and grief. Katherine was one of those people who was a joy to be around, and man, could she ROCK a costume-- she was tall, slim and elegant from head to toe. A very talented actress actually, even though acting was not her main profession.

She played this bit role of "Rich Lady" in San Francisco Ballet's latest production of "Nutcracker"-- I'm using this shot of her with her befeathered bonnet, surrounded by some plainer, (but perhaps more spiritually blessed) Super Nuns, because this role and costume captures Katherine's special qualities for me.

She will be greatly missed by all who knew her.

Meanwhile, I'm still alive and kicking on this Planet Earth. I'm pushing through ZEN rehearsals, trying to show up fully, trying to inhabit this character: Boss and Dad, who feels very alien to me. Trying to be with people way younger than me, trying to find some common ground.

We're heading into a more intense rehearsal period, as the actual shows are coming up just around the corner in July.

Part of me would love to quit and just stay home with my kitties and watch TV, because frankly, that'd be "easier" right now. But I would never actually do that. I've invested time, energy and heart into this creative project, and the director Nick and the rest of the cast have invested the same in themselves and in me, so I will not allow myself to quit out of fear...

It's just that cavorting around on the Opera House stage is SO MUCH EASIER!!!

Arrgh, I hate being so fucking neurotic.

Oh well, One Day/ One Rehearsal at a Time...

Tuesday, May 16, 2006

As per my therapist's instructions, I'm s'posed to sell another piece of Artwork this week!

Dang, moving out of Underearning is hard work!!!

Well, it's Tuesday and the momentum of last week's art-selling frenzy is fading fast. So I'm putting up another drawing... this one is pretty recent, from March '05, and it is a very personal image. Very much about the Dark and Light that is who I am.

I have no idea if anyone would want it in their life besides me, but if you do, I'm selling it for the VERY AFFORDABLE PRICE of only:


plus shipping and handling...

Heck, that's the price of 3 crappy blouses from Walmart that'll fall apart in the wash in two months!

It's a 5 1/2" x 8 1/2" pencil rendering. You can click on the image to see it better.


Madame Glinka sez: "It's cool to own an Albert original!"

Sunday, May 14, 2006

Birthday Continued, Other News, even RE:ality TV News, and a Happy Mother's Day to all the Moms out there!

This is a photo of me taken last Saturday on my B-day, wearing both my new wide-brimmed sun-hat and a gold plastic tiara that I borrowed from a friend for the day. Snazzy, huh?

So, some exciting news: I sold a second work of art on Thursday, to the most generous and kind Mike S. of SFCivicCenterBlog fame (all the movers and shakers of the contemporary classical music scene are apparently discovering his site).

He bought a little homoerotic gouache painting I did in the mid-eighties. I received some very sweet cold hard cash for it, woohooooo! This sellin' art bizness is very attractive suddenly. To be continued...

"Survivor, Exile Island" is wrapping up tonight and I'm totally rooting for Cirie, though I don't think she has much of a chance. I was bored last night and was watching an old tape of a Finale from Season 6, the Amazon, when Jenna won over Matthew/Mateo (the season which had the awesome hearing-impaired Christie, loved her). Boy, Jeff Probst used to smile and be kind of nice... I think it may be time for him to find a new day job-- he's just phoning it in these days.

"ZEN" has been on a limited rehearsal schedule because the director is also acting in a production of "King Lear" with a different theater company that just opened this week. My confidence level with "ZEN" is hovering near zero currently. Oy Oy Oy! I'm thinking about talking with director Nick about this, I think he'd be open to it. I know I'm not the first insecure, somewhat untrained actor to ever walk the boards, but still.

All in all, Mood: Mixed.

Wednesday, May 10, 2006

Woohoo, I sold a drawing!
:-) :-) :-)

The lovely, sensitive and talented Coy is my first Art Patron. She purchased this drawing, which helped to inspire her own journal's siggie, which uses a butterfly with a window in its center... a doodle I sent her on a Thank You card a while back.

I also heard from my bud Jeff T. this a.m., interested in another drawing. (My prayers for the loss of Harley, Jeff & Bob...) Good to talk with you, Jeff.

Thinking of creating a second art-selling blog...???

Monday, May 08, 2006

Drawings I have drawn and drawings I will draw.

You want something Blue? You want something Red? You want something with Flowers? You want something with a Sad Clown? You want something with a Weird Face? You want something with GLITTER???

I will draw it for you, if I haven't drawn it already. I will sell it to you. I will mail it to you, or I will meet you in a cafe and hand it over.

I feel insane. I don't know how to do this! Judith Heartsong, helppppppp!!!!!

Friday, May 05, 2006

I got a nibble!

Thank you, SFMike for your interest in my humble l'il doodles...

What else can I sell??????

I am envisioning Madame G., traipsing around the City trailing torn multi-colored tulle, with her beglittered tin cup.

(I think I want to hook up with someone who owns a camcorder.)

I am envisioning Madame G. sitting in her local Starbucks with her many papers/memories... nursing that one small coffee for hours; she must sip through a straw, so as not to ruin her glitter lipstick...

God/ Goddess/ Universe/ Tao/ Spirit: I pray for knowledge of your Will for me, and the power to carry it out.

Hunger (imagined?) is making me slightly delirious, pardon the rambling!


Thursday, May 04, 2006


Serious bizness... my therapist and I have been toiling away at my money/ work/ creativity issues and he has been giving me these impossible-to-refuse homework assignments to keep my latex-esque nose to the grindstone, so to speak.

The latest is to SELL SOMETHING CREATIVE by next week. Anything. A poem, a drawing, a monologue, a photo, a Glink. ANYTHING.

For any amount.

Fucking scary. I am such a wuss. I am turning 48 (this Saturday!) and I fucking still don't know what I'm doing with my life.

Anyway, if y'all want to know what to get me for my birthday, buy something creative of mine.


For any amount.